Day 1 after chemo:
I woke up feeling quite normal on Saturday. Lavina came in the morning to make me some fresh fruit juices. But around lunch time, after I heated up some soup, the nausea feeling started to overpower me. I had to lay down and rest. I puked several times and slept for most of the afternoon and did not have any appetite. At night, Sharon and Jed came. Sharon came to help me with my Neupogen shot (she’s a pharmacist), making sure that I was doing it correctly. It was tough poking myself. Have I mentioned that I’m a big chicken when it comes to needles? It’s going to take me awhile to overcome the fear. I hesitated, but finally did it. I successfully gave myself my first Neupogen shot.
Day 2 after chemo:
No puking, just felt really really tired and sleepy and had absolutely no appetite. Ivy, Esther, Vivien came to make some more fresh fruit juices, helped me wash my hair (I couldn’t shower for 72 hours after the portacath placement), helped us with groceries shopping and prepared a delicious dinner. The food smelled really good, but I just couldn’t seem to eat anything. Later on, Sharon and Jed came again to help me with the self-injection. This time, I was doing it in front of all the girls. I hesitated again, this time, longer than usual. I was sweating and just couldn’t put the needle in. So I put the needle down, took a breather, got angry, took off my glasses and quickly did it. After I poked myself, I felt much better. I went downstairs and chow down a huge asian pear and some chocolates.
Day 3 after chemo:
Today I feel much better and well enough to go to work. Siang drove me though. My appetite also improved and I had a somewhat ‘normal’ dinner, some cold chicken noodle and fried rice. Not my usual portion, but at least I was able to eat.
I still dread about the moment when I have to do self-injection. Logically, this should get easier, but for some reason, it seemed harder and harder each day. The more I think about it, the more I feel sick. I have to do this for 3 months. Please pray that I’ll maintain a good attitude about the self-injection and be brave. Please also pray that the discomfort caused by the portacath will be gone soon. Thanks!
Posted by annie at May 24, 2004 10:20 PM